Sometimes the panic attacks are the only things that feel real. Everything else is like a bad movie I don’t know how to direct to act in but I’m hurrying to find out what happens while the cinematography is beautiful.
I sat in my car today gripping the steering wheel so tight, large drops of sweat fell on my faded jeans. I hate the pills. They’re an excuse. I didn’t take them. I waited like my cat when I go to the closet where her food is kept.
I got through this one. Maybe I’ll be even better next time.
This is a personal reply to my friend Velvet’s 100 Word Challenge. Her word to use was “HURRYING”. http://www.velvetverbosity.com/
New episodes of Soul To Body, Helene Troy and Dead Money with Tara, Millicent, and Pauley will be along between tomorrow and Monday morning. Thanks for reading.
***editorial note*** – my life is good, I just have mental illness. Thank goodness for my family
Today’s song is something you should listen to because it rocks. It’s special to me because it’s what I go through sometimes, when the illness kicks me in the face repeatedly. Here’s Sugarcult’s anxiety themed Bouncing Off The Walls. Play it loud, it works better that way.